Hello my name is Narin. I was born and raised in Long Beach California. Welcome to my page. This is my journey and wanted to share this journey with you. My mission is to write this to help others to express the deepest true self and discover who you are. To live in the moment, to live freely, to connect with earth and to connect with who you really are. Mainly just to free yourself from everything in this world. I know this world can be so chaotic, overwhelming, stressful ,so many disconnection and feeling lost. I been there and i’m writing this how I overcame these obstacles. Trust me it was a long hard road and it wasn’t easy. So i’m here to share with you my story. My near death experiences. It all started when I was in elementary as I remember around 4th or 5th grade around summertime in 1986. I went fishing with my dad on the docks of Ken Malloy Harbor Regional Park in Wilimington California. I never forget that day what had happened to me. I always will remember dearly in my heart and will cherish it forever. I remember I was fishing on the dock, I turned around, missed a step, it happened so fast, fell into the water and almost drowned. I didn’t know how to swim.

All I saw underwater was water plants and darkness. I didn’t feel fearful or I wasn’t panicking in that moment I didn’t know what was going on when I was under the water. I felt like I knew I was safe and protected by the water. I saw a lady with orange hair, white bright face, amazing beautiful big smile, who gave me her hand then pulled me out of the water. After I got out of the water to look for her to thank her, she wasn’t there.That’s when I realized she was an angel. When I got out of the water that’s when I felt panicking, fearful and I was crying hysterically because there wasn’t anyone on site. My dad wasn’t around. So I walked around to find my dad. So I found my dad and he was so oblivious. My dad didn’t know what was going on and he didn’t know I almost drowned. He had ask me why I was playing in the water. I told him I almost drowned and at that moment I didn’t feel any comfort from him. He was mad at me thinking I was playing in the water. It made me feel like I wasn’t being seen or heard at that moment. I felt hurt, I felt he didn’t care or I was being loved. I knew in my heart he does love me, care for me deeply but he didn’t know how to be expressive. He shows me by being there for me throughout my life. I learned that my parents didn’t know how to be expressive of how they feel so they suffer alot. Their reaction is angry towards everything because they couldn’t express.

I see how pure their heart are behind those walls. It’s very kind, genuine and beautiful. I struggled a lot throughout life always trying to fit in with other crowds to feel loved and seek attention. So I change the way how I look a lot just to fit in with different crowds. I felt lost. I didn’t know who I was. I was trying to be someone else that i’m not. I felt so disconnected with myself so I suffered. Hanging with the wrong crowd got me into a lot of trouble. Aside from almost drowning, being shot at, choking on a whistle ball, being in couple car accidents, after giving birth to my first daughter I was hemorrhaging til I was blue to the point where I was losing too much blood. The doctor have to give me couple bags of blood transfusion. I was starting to be afraid of death and wasn’t living my life to my potential. Fear was holding me back from living so I suffered a lot. So I developed anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I would go into the E.R. a lot thinking I was dying. The feeling I felt was out of my control.

My physical pain started to develop and just comes on without warning where I can’t breathe, heart racing, shaking uncontrollably alongside with the headaches. Every visit to the doctor offices, getting lab work done, every testing to see if there’s any other issues medically. Test result always show normal so I thought I was losing my mind. So I saw a psychiatrist for couple months. My psychiatrist wants to put me on medications which I don’t want to be on any type or any kind of medications. That’s just me, I prefer not too. I had enough with all of these pain, suffering and losing my mind. I wanted to be happy, I would wish everything would go away and feel free. I even had suicidal thoughts but I know deep inside I wouldn’t do that to myself.I knew I had to do my inner work. My turning point was I started praying, asking for guidance. I didn’t want to be in this state of pain anymore. So something had lead me to reiki, meditation, taking a walk in the nature, enjoying the beauty of the earth. Pretty lush green trees, beautiful vibrant color flowers, cute dragonflies, butterflies, hearing bird chirping, the sound of waterfall is very cleansing. Basically connecting with nature is just an amazing feeling. It help healed me. It made look at life differently. I had to face all of my fears. Let go of all the things you can’t control. Let go of all the negativity that doesn’t serve me in my life. I let go of the heaviness I felt in my heart to set myself free. The hardest thing was facing myself and the ego. I had to be in this empty space of nothing but silence. It was very uncomfortable space to be when your not use to silence but the more I practice the more I came home to myself. It shows you how powerful your mind can be. Being more expressive and accepting who you really are sets you free. I hope you can take this along with your journey to discovered your deepest feelings, desires and simply just let go. Be present, expressive, kind, trust, appreciate, acceptance, pray, love with all your heart unconditionally. “Your path of your destiny lies within you with an open heart”. My heart feel so warm, happy and excited for your journey. My journey is still continuing with faith..My love to you..